8.1 - Eight Won, Ate One

8.1 - eight won, ate one

And once again, I have no one to talk to but myself.

I can't hold this stuff in anymore.

I did not, will not, and am not asking you to read this. Not many people even know this exists. If you're here, reading this now, it's because -YOU- wanted to be.

12:34p - 8.1

beetles, bluebirds, (straw)'berries, & (yellow) butterflies...

I have seen the signs. I will have Faith.

I will tread lightfully, carefully, respectfully, mindfully, sacredly.

Every step a choice. Every breath.

12:39p -- I will finish researching the symbolism of yellow butterflies, specifically a yellow butterfly that looks nearly identical to a monarch butterfly save being yellow instead of orange, and then I will make my decision as to whether or not to include more information about this subject in this entry...

12:41p

Paltry attempts at zazen after slowly being forced to wake. Only sat half-lotus, kept fidgeting and never really got into it... Had to get up to begin journaling...

I had a dream last night... I don't dream very much any more...

I know a lot more happened, and I know that it's totally "normal" to lose dreams upon waking, but it's not normal to me and I have trouble accepting not being able to remember every single detail with absolute clarity.

Moving forward...

What I can recall is a group of people in some social setting and at some point they became enamored with the discovery of a "gate"/"portal" type thing...

DBS SPOILERS/"THEORIES" -- Computer froze after typing that.... Mayhaps I shan't include them? -- Whether or not to include the origins of the Kai-O and Kaioshin and the implications they have on our world and our/my relationship with Nihon-jin, the Japanese... -- For now, I will say this... and if one of the pairs of eyes on this is who I think they are, this may be enough for them to go on without drawing others into the crossfire, something I've been admittedly woefully inept at as of late, -- "Core People." -- o.O

FOOD = SEX
SEX = FOOD
Which is more important to you? Overall? Why? Do you understand the implications behind your preference? Even if it is one by default or technicality?

God/Father spoke to me through/with Lightning last night... -- I wish I could share more, but I may've already said too much... - Suffice it to say that I have finally come to terms that there are no such things as "Vish-Powers". It has always been and will always be Acting In Accordance With Divine Will. On this plane, in this form, I must not fully divorce myself from Ego, but rather mindfully choose its expression and how/when to best separate myself from it.

I can Hear His Voice... I can See His Hands...

I am Listening, I am Watching...

I must uncloud my heart of distrust for 人類 (Jin-rui), Humanity, & Myself...

I must stop doubting myself...

I must Look Deeper To The Core...

Naturally the group congregated on me and informed me of/invited me to "The Gate." - At the precise moment before crossing the threshold I got an uneasy feeling and hesitated, at -the- moment of crossing the threshold, my awareness raced ahead of me and forecast events that had not yet come to be...

I stepped past the blackness and whooshed forward, lurched, nauseatingly to down and then up and then straight forward again, like a nose-dive in a plane meant to simulate zero-g for ~30 seconds...

The group on the other side was unaware of what I was rapidly becoming painfully aware of and as such I had mere seconds to act.

When my feet materialized underneath me, I found myself experiencing time both at normal speed in the present and vastly slowed down yet "shadowing" the present...

They were beginning to gather on me once again to inform me of what they'd seen so far, but I knew already, I knew much more than I had time to convey adequately....

In their experience it was ancient ruins of an ancient civilization similar to the one hinted at in Prometheus/Aliens... From their perspective the place had been LONG abandoned and was ancient and undisturbed for untold eons lost in time to recorded history, events and places from so long ago they can be said to be mere myth and to have never actually happened, while I "saw" and "felt" this I also felt the terrible lingering Ki of monstrous entities having "just left."

Perception of linear time was speeding back up in their perception and mine and my face was beginning to communicate the thoughts underneath it, faster than I had words to corral... Their faces said in return "What could you possibly be worried about? No one or thing has been here in ages, we are alone." -- I did not have time to explain that they were "just here." And that one or more, or some form of remnant may remain... As local perception of time snapped back into place the momentum carried to and through...

In the few moments that they were able to utter audible language to me and gesticulate their hands to further communicate, it drowned out as meaningless white noise and I felt a monstrous inertia pushing behind me... Propelling me forward...

In an instant I was flung forward...

1:13p - Finally put my glasses on

Physics felt "off" but I instinctively knew this to be a trick of perception and not the actual case, the speeding up and slowing down of time created a space-time fabric ripple/wave of which I was now surfing on in "real time" still according to the physical "law" that governs matter here in the 3rd dimension...

I did my best to remain calm and understand the situation as it was unfolding in real time, a specialty of mine, I'd say, heh, but at times even I am overwhelmed/impressed by myself and ability...

I knew what I had to do...

Before the vibrations from their larynxes could crash ashore into my eardrums I was nearly perpendicular (and coming in hot!) to the wall facing the gate. A wall lined with huge ancient statues...

As inaudible confusion assaulted my senses in the form of imperceptible language, I was too busy focusing on a statue on the far right that had come alive and began centering its awareness on yours truly, seemingly in an aggressive manner...

While comical, I can best describe the statue as a genderswapped Mother Mary, yes, get this, DJing.... Looking to be in front of what appeared to be... well.. ancient turn tables, both the statue and equipment began de-solidifying and moving as if holding a consciousness within...

The statue/entity/creature seemed simultaneously excited and frightened by me, and, I think I detected, disappointed by its own relative lack of relative speed...

1:22p

It would appear that it seemed self-aware that it "didn't wake up in time" or "wake up fast enough."

Still riding The Wave (Brain just screamed THE SILVER SURFER) I did a flip turn, like a swimmer, off of the wall and rebounded toward the gate and group, I had about 3 or 4 with me, but in this state of speed the properties of physics made the group feel as light (and DELICATE) as paper... I did my best to gather them without ripping or tearing them -- Stand atop a car on the highway going over 100mph and try holding on to 4 lifesize cardboard cutouts in the shape of a human body!!! -- and as the hand of the statue was grasping at my heel we punched back through to the other side... Everyone seemingly intact and no one worse for wear...

1:26p

"What happened?" They asked in various forms repeated in tandem...

I was deciding whether or not to relate the entirety of the experience and how before I found myself unpleasantly returning to the surface of my body here in reality.... The details of the events preceding the Gate quickly dissolving in the recesses of the near-infinite caverns of my mind....

1:28p

Amid pushing the recent events of reality from my mind and trying to either get back to sleep/dreaming or wake up and go for a walk to start my day, I found myself understanding the details of how Hit came to be in possession of Goku's body....

Something I was all too excited to relay here, but that circumstance bade me hold on to... for now...

1:30p

Hungry...
Trying to decide between a shower or a snack before getting dressed and going for a walk...

I've been a good boy thus far not breaking into my treats that I've been saving for after the walk...

An energy drink... NOS black&yellow, some new-fangled gummies, cubes with liquid inside, and a cigarette.

As of today, as far as I know, and as far as I care and am concerned, PA just steeply raised the taxes on cigarettes to be about $10 a pack. Wisely (or not!) I purchased a pack beforehand and promised myself that I would not smoke until after I'd completed my walk...

A feat that is proving frustratingly difficult....

I must focus on the fact that if I indulge now, I will rob myself of the energy/desire to walk... An unfortunate fact that I've faced myself with more than a few times in the past that I am no longer in denial of... -- I keep telling myself a smoke break or pre-smoke is okay (Addict talk!) but I know better. From experience.

YOU WANT THAT CIGARETTE AND THAT SUGAR/CAFFEINE, YOU STUPID ADDICT BODY?! THEN OFF YOUR ASS AND GET YOUR 4 MILES IN UNDER AN HOUR IN.

1:35p

I think if I were to eat it would anchor me down, so I'm thinking the best course of action would be to shower and get dressed ASAP and get out the door before finding myself glued to the bed or couch, likely for the rest of the day...

1:40p
I'm going to review the information I desire to include... -- Upon review, I will not include it in this particular entry.

1:51p

Researching a Sisyphus synchronicity ATM... -- The name by itself in an entry from over a week ago and a memory of seeing a picture and/or downloading last night or the night prior.... Attempting to sew the two experiences together, and hopefully with meaning, at the present...

1:53p
1:55p 7.31 - 12:27p - now looking through history... and spontaneously deciding to draft an entry of all berserk pix and such...
2:11p Berserk pix/entry posted... Leaving natural order of pix alone for now..

Found it! http://www.theatlantic.com/technology/archive/2014/05/the-best-way-to-type-__/371351/

PERFECT!! HAHA! YES!!!
2:16p - I won't tag the raw entry yet... Still gotta quit procrastinating and get myself up and at 'em and out the door!

2:22p STRAWBERRIES!! -- That should hold me over for a bit!

Spacing my "raw" entry...

2:42p published...

2:48p craving(s) pretty strong... Drinking a mason jar's worth of water and then hopping in the shower!

2:55p -- A little shook... I just noticed that Abbey took ALL of her clothes... from the closets... She didn't leave a single hanging garment... if she ever plans/planned on coming back why didn't she leave at least a few things...

I'm so scared and so worried... I want to trust... I want to have Faith... but I am consumed by doubt... Help me, Lord. Help me know Your Heart and Your Will... Replace Mine with Yours... Amen.

2:57p Fighting the urge for a cig. Fighting the urge to go through her drawers....

I MUST NOT DOUBT. I MUST HAVE FAITH.

2:58p
2:59p *Phew* You really had me going there!

3:01p OH SO YOU GOT JOKES, DAD. BOY DO YOU GOT A FUCKED UP SENSE OF HUMOR. DARK, SOME WOULD SAY. YOY.

3:03p -- OH FUCK. YOU ARE HILARIOUS. I HAVEN'T LAUGHED LIKE THAT/THIS IN A LONG/LONG TIME. YOU REALLY DO KNOW MY SENSE OF HUMOR.

HUMOR IS MY TRUE SELF.
COMEDY IS MY TRUE SELF.

NOTHING ELSE MATTERS OTHER THAN BEING FUNNY AND MAKING PEOPLE LAUGH.

However, my burgeoning little Comic Comedian, don't forget that one must set up the punch line in order for it to really hit... SERIOUS true devoted comedy requires occasional periods of being deadly serious...

3:05p...... oh. i understand now.....

3:09p

God is here with me now, always...

Shower time.

3:26p So fresh and so clean clean!

I still can't find my comb.... I really hope it turns up soon...... It's extremely extremely valuable to me...

Alright HellHound! You ready to go for a walk?!
Huh?!
You wanna go for a walk?!
Do ya? Do ya? Do ya do ya do ya?!??!

Let's go buddy!

Gimme 4 miles and I'll give you gummies, an energy drink and a cigarette or two!

Come on boy! Let's go!

3:36p dressing...

3:42 - reality is God Playing Dumb

weakness is intelligent, it has to be...
strength is dumb, it can afford to be....

No boy, I will not grab the cigs before we leave. You can't be trusted. You've proven that already.

Get our body out to Coffee Tree and back before 5 and you can have all your treats then...

You know what else, buddy?! The sooner you get us back, the sooner you get your treats!

3:44p

What are you waiting for?! Time's a-wastin'! Let's go!

5:02p
*sonic voice* YOU'RE TOO SLOOOW.

Now for my treats! Good boy!

3 pairs o cheex, 3 maxi dress bend-over/touchies, 3 cross the street to pass near me's,

walking. taco. sedentary.
walking flower. dancing petal. running roots.

BUT MORE ON THAT AFTER TREATS.

5:21p
Hey thanks, door, I was planning on taking that shoe off once I got inside anyway. What a nice and helpful guy you are. Wow. Such assist. Much nice. So help.

Sweet Victory!

Victory is sweet even deep in the cheap seats...

5:22p

Having a somewhat difficult time resisting splashing my face with water and/or washing my hands... I have to keep repeating to myself that if I don't get started somewhere, I won't start. I have to draw the line. I have to break the cycle. If I give in to splashing my face and/or washing my hands now I can pretty much guarantee that I'll lock myself into needing to do so every time I finish strenuous activity and/or sweat. TRAINING. I'll never escape this cycle unless I let my flesh rebuild its natural flora and fauna and return to equilibrium.

5:24p

I keep getting kicked out of the Misery Loves Company Club for being too happy... Which then makes me miserable... Which then gets me invited back to the Club.... It's Vish's Cycle.

5:28p

I think I really enjoy walking because it's simultaneously voluntary and semi-involuntary and you are free to oscillate between both modes. You can either really watch your form and stride and rigidly maintain your posture whilst regulating your breathing, or you can do whatever it takes to put one foot in front of the other sucking wind and gaining ground. I love that.

I was pretty good right up until the end of the boulevard when I started getting real thirsty, but other than that I was planning on getting home and remarking on how surprised I was that after basically being nearly completely sedentary for nearly 4 years that walking was still relatively easy. That was the case for the first 2 miles. At pretty much exactly the halfway point I became drenched in sweat out of nowhere and the good feeling that was pervasive throughout the first 2 miles almost vanished completely, threatening a pre-headache.

5:32p I want to want cannabis. Is that weird? I'm surprised I don't have a craving for cannabis. And yet, here I am, remarking on it, perhaps I subconsciously do? I nunno... Anyhoo...

5:33p

The hardest part of the initial 2 miles was walking past the delicious smells of Las Palmas' Taqueria... TRAINING.

5:36p

I've realized something. Something crucial. Something women and females don't want you to know.

Male/Female
Man/Woman
Male/Man
Female/Woman
Male/Woman
Female/Man

Not all Men are Male. Not all Women are Female.

Women/females, in general, are rapists.

Rape Lite. -- Now with 99% less Physical Assault!

Cleavage, skirts, heels, they're always flashing you and exposing themselves to you and then blaming -you- for looking and desiring. What. The. Fuck. What in the actual fuck?

The Patriarchy is The Matriarchy in disguise.

The current state of the world is them tricking you into voluntarily and openly putting them into power. Yeah fuckin' right!

This entire campaign of feminism is gas-lighting and misdirection.

In no particular order I was "accosted" and "street-harassed" nearly 10 times today. An unfortunate fact that revealed to me I've been silently enduring such treatment my entire life. Not so silently at times, but never fully lucidly as I am now. My eyes are open.

They accuse men of all the behaviors/attributes they themselves are decently hiding. Bitch shit. Pussy shit. "Ninja" shit. Shinobi shit. Cat shit.

Women/Females are fucking stupid rapist cats. -- "Oh you don't wanna touch me? Oh you're completely ignoring me? We'll see about that!" - "Oh you're staring at me? Oh you wanna touch me? You can fuckin' forget about it, buddy! You ain't good enough!"

OKAY, CAT. WHATEVER. NO ONE FUCKING LIKES YOU. GO AWAY. NO ONE FUCKING CARES.

I had 3 separate women all flash me their buttcheex in "shorts" that can only be described as panties, not even bathing suits... -- While I'm not complaining outright per se, I just think it's funny when they wonder why they get so much sexual attention, A DOY. -- The one girl had to have been near teenage because while she was eye-fucking the ever living shit out of me, her poor little thin-framed baby-faced fuckboy was frantically looking for not too obvious ways to stand behind her bottom and shield me from seeing it. Poor guy. He deserves better. Stupid fucking whore. Selfish fucking slut.

Next, I had 3 separate women all cross the street AFTER I'd already crossed so that we didn't have to walk by each other, and try to walk as closely past me as possible. Vish Life. I go on the other side of the street so as not seem predatory or intimidating and they follow me to be like "oh no! you pervin on this whether or not you want to! you gon' look at me and you gon' like it" They weren't even coy or shy or slick about trying their damndest to actually physically brush past me after blatantly crossing the street to do so. What is life.

BUT WAIT, THERE'S MORE. Next I had 3 more separate women, all in maxi-dresses with either a thong or nothing underneath, (all pretty fuckin' smokin' hot, honestly -- like really dece asses on all 3) all act in the following similar fashion.
>They see me coming
>They try (keyword: try!) to act natural and aloof
>They look for an excuse to face their butt toward me
>They decide "looking for something in the car" and bending over is undetectable and subtle enough
>They blatantly bend over to show me EVERYTHING
>-JUST- as I'm passing they all quickly stand up and nearly "accidentally" bump their bumbums into my hands

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME.

Next time this shit happens, I'm just gonna stand there, crotch triumphantly thrust forward and palms upwards ready to squeeze cheex.

I dodged all three of them (My Mama raised me right!) much to their decently veiled chagrin...

But I know exactly what would happened afterward if I hadn't dodged them and wasn't as aware as I am
*bonk*
Me: "Oh my gosh! I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to--"
Whore X: "It's okay hon, I didn't see you there, teehee -- [goes on to bullshit engage me somehow and selfishly rob me of my precious time]"
Yeah fuckin' right, bitch. You did not get up early enough.

No more Mr. Nice Guy, though. I'm fuckin' with the next fuckin' slut that tries this underhanded shit with me. I'm coppin' a free feel AND calling her out on her bullshit and then skipping along my own merry way.

Do you know why slut-shaming (≠ promiscuity-shaming) is okay? BECAUSE IT EFFECTS OTHER PEOPLE. IT SPREADS DISEASE, YOU NASTY ROTTING CUNT. SORRY YOU DIDN'T RESPECT YOURSELF ENOUGH TO HOLD OUT FOR THE ONE YOU LOVE AND NOW YOUR GUILT-RIDDEN SELF-HATING ASS IS DOING ITS BEST TO SPREAD ITS DISEASE AND TAKE EVERYONE DOWN WITH EM. FUCK THAT. GO THE FUCK OVER THERE.

The same reason fat-shaming is (mostly) okay. IT EFFECTS OTHER people. Big is not beautiful. It's fucking disgusting. You look like the fat pig that you are in your soul. Sucking up all the resources and starving those around you. Everyone has an inherent disgust at excess adipose tissue. Ever wonder why that is? It's fucking biological. You look like the greedy mindless piece of shit that you actually are. No wonder we hate you! -- There are always exceptions to the rule, hormone imbalances and such but those are rare, very rare. The majority of fat people are fat because they are greedy and dumb. End of story.

Slut ≠ Promiscuous.

Promiscuous means having many sexual partners, and also carries the connotation of mindfully doing so and on purpose.

Slut carries the connotation of sleeping around mindlessly with everything you can fuck. (gender-free)

Male or female, sluts = fucking disgusting. LITERALLY. SEE WHAT I DID THERE.

Male or female, promiscuous = not my cup of tea, but also none of my business.

Class dismissed.

5:42p

Fuck all that lurking in the shadows garbage you fucking pussies. Come right out into the open and announce yourself to your opponent. Like a samurai! Like a bushi! Like a male! LIKE A MAN.

"A man will punch you in the face, but a woman will stab you in the back."

Pathetic! Weak!

5:44p

辛抱
Serendipitously discovered that looking for something else.

ゲームキューブ

ゲーム

キューブ

I'm eatin' little gummy cubes here in a bit and anticipating opening the bag has my brain repeating "Kyubu" from when it heard it in dragon ball super.

In fact, I'm gonna go grab my folder and write it a few times. Just, ya know, for funsies.

5:47p

And now my brain keeps repeating that whistle from like naval ships/star ships. Gonna look up what that's called...

5:53p

Gotta wonder why there's not a google for noises/sounds yet.... I just wanna whistle at the computer and have it know what I'm referring to...

5:59p
閃電煞星

Now I wanna learn all the lyrics/notes to edelweiss

6:05p - Mechanic: Ressurected

Still Questing For Home.

On A Quest To Find Home...

6:08p

I found my home. My Home. It's Abbey. -- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VNZgUM542VI

The Dark Rose

I've made my stand. I've made my choice. I'm not backing down. I'm not giving up. I've come too far. We've come too far. I can't give up. I don't know how. I never give up. NEVER GIVE UP.

6:10p
6:16p
Mechanic: Resurrection

YOU'RE ALL I GET, ABBEY. IT'S YOU OR NO ONE. NO ONE ELSE.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ANbkNhU4VSY

You always hurt the one you love
The one you shouldn't hurt at all
You always take the sweetest rose
And crush it till the petals fall

You always brea-eak the kindest hear-eart
With a hasty word you can't recall, so
If I broke your heart la-ast night
It's because I love you most of all

You always hurt the one you lo-ove
The one you shouldn't hurt at all
You always take the sweetest ro-ose
And crush it till the petals fa-all

You always break the kindest heart
With a hasty word you can't recall
So-o if I broke your heart last night
It's because I love you mo-ost of a-all

You always hurt the one you love
The one you shouldn't hurt at all
You always take the sweetest rose
Crush it, ti-ill the petals fall

You always brea-eak the kindest heart
With a hasty word you can't recall, so
If I broke your heart last night
It's because I love you most of all...

6:17p
6:26p Trolli Sour Brite Blasts - JUICY EXPLODING CUBES.

Pretty dece, pretty squishy... I was hoping for a somewhat firmer chewier texture... These are quite soft and gooey.... I'll have a few more and then pop 'em in da free-ajj

6:27p

I'll be seeing you
In all the old familiar places
That this heart of mine embraces
All day through

In that small cafe
The park across the way
The children's carousel
The chestnut trees, the wishing well

I'll be seeing you
In every lovely summers day
In everything that's light and gay
I'll always think of you that way

I'll find you in the morning sun
And when the night is new
I'll be looking at the moon
But I'll seeing you.

6:28p --

I'll Be Seeing You...

6:34p
Heatin' up a Souper Meal. *Heavy Sigh*

6:52p

One way or another, I just opened the last pack of cigarettes that I will purchase in 2016. 2017 and beyond? We'll see. I have to make it to 2017 tobacco-free, first. So, I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.

6:53p

19 Camel Turkish Royal cigarettes remaining...

7:02p
Boatswain's call - Bosun's Whistle - low/high/low

7:05p
Edelweiss Edelweiss
Every morning you greet me
Small and white
Clean and bright
You look happy to meet me

Blossom of snow may you bloom and grow
Bloom and grow forever
Edelweiss Edelweiss
Bless my homeland forever

7:13p
Eatin' soup and watch George Carlin's bit on Fat People...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nLRQvK2-iqQ
7:15p

Come with me
And you'll be
In a world of pure imagination
Take a look
And you'll see
Into your imagination

We'll begin
With a spin
Traveling in
The world of my creation
What we'll see
Will defy
Explanation

If you want to view paradise
Simply look around and view it
Anything you want to, do it
Want to change the world?
There's nothing to it

There is no
Life I know
To compare with pure imagination
Living there
You'll be free
If you truly wish to be

If you want to see magic lands
Close your eyes and you will see one
Want to be a dreamer, be one
Anytime you please and please save me one

Come with me
And you'll be
In a world of pure imagination
Take a look
And you'll see
Into your imagination

There is no
Place to go
To compare with your imagination
So go there
To be free
If you truly wish to be

Living there
You'll be free
If you truly wish to be

7:17p
7:27p

Two really weird synchronicities...
A maleXmale couple on Tumblr with one of the males displaying "Home" on his knuckles/fingers and clearly being the more aggressive of the pair....
And then scrolling further I see a pic that says "my life as a teenage robot." During my walk earlier I was likening robots to teenagers and vice versa

it's raining super super hard, time to rip off all my clothes and go run in it!

7:54p
I find no small coincidence in the fact that it started raining like this after I started typing angrily and hatefully. Duly noted.
7:56p

INVIGORATING

8:06p

8:13p
This flower signifies deep love and devotion whereby men harvest the flower on daring steeps and fatal climbs to prove love and to show occasions of devotion. It’s synonymous with the alpine terrain, and those of the Alps find it a flower of purity that instills a great sense of patriotism with its meanings. The nations bound to this flower’s symbol includes regions in Austria, Germany and Switzerland. It’s short life span and remote habitation have inspired the folklore of Alps inhabitants to signify the Edelweiss with national prestige. It is Switzerland’s national flower.

The Edelweiss is a flower that means notoriety in its complete essence. It’s prized where it naturally grows and is created to be a symbol by its local region because it’s only obtained by a few when it lies waiting in its natural habitat. It, therefore, captivates the symbolic qualities of adventure and great sacrifice.

There are a collection of medical uses that the Edelweiss flower finds itself useful for. Collectively, the flower is great in mediating the presence of normal aging, abdominal pain, aerophagia, amnesia, Alzheimer’s, allergic reactions and alcoholism alike. Of these, an upset stomach is more commonly remedied with the Edelweiss flower.

Interesting Facts About the Edelweiss Flower
There currently are legal limitations that deny the legal right to pick this flower in most of the regions where it’s now left to grow wild.
The plant is said to have anti-aging proponents.
The popular song, that you likely heard on “Sound of Music” is not a national tune; it was written specifically for the movie.
To prevent its extinction, the Edelweiss has been planted in accessible areas consisting of lower altitudes.
The Edelweiss is a token of love, and it is also the name of a beer maker in Austria.

Special Occasions for Edelweiss Flowers
Should the man be brave and stout, an Edelweiss might be the right flower to profess his love. This flower can be a great symbol of love when daring men take hold of the mountains and elevate there way through dangers of falling and inclement weather.

The lucky women found to be the reason for such an occasion will surely know the honor of the man seeking to impress her. This flower could also have been given to soothe the body of diphtheria or tuberculosis.

When taken as a tea, these ailments are given relief and was a gesture of good faith had it been giving to you during sickness.

The Edelweiss Flower’s Message Is:
A plant that is of honorable qualities, the Edelweiss, which makes its seeker climb and its lover woo. Its nobility is found in its upbringing: rare and where only few can surely get to.

The Edelweiss Flower: Its Meaning & Symbolism

Edelweiss Flowers

This flower signifies deep love and devotion whereby men harvest the flower on daring steeps and fatal climbs to prove love and to show occasions of devotion. It’s synonymous with the alpine terrain, and those of the Alps find it a flower of purity that instills a great sense of patriotism with its meanings. The nations bound to this flower’s symbol includes regions in Austria, Germany and Switzerland. It’s short life span and remote habitation have inspired the folklore of Alps inhabitants to signify the Edelweiss with national prestige. It is Switzerland’s national flower.

What Does the Edelweiss Flower Mean:

The Edelweiss is a flower that means notoriety in its complete essence. It’s prized where it naturally grows and is created to be a symbol by its local region because it’s only obtained by a few when it lies waiting in its natural habitat. It, therefore, captivates the symbolic qualities of adventure and great sacrifice.

Etymological Meaning of the Edelweiss Flower:
When speaking of the etymology of the Edelweiss flower, we’ll inevitably come by the name and meaning of Leontopodium aplinum that is characterized as a German mountain flower and what mountains symbolize. It prefer heights of 1,500 to 3,000 meters on incline. The Edelweiss flower is also a part of the daisy and sunflower family with non-toxic properties in its makeup. This flower has tomentose, a wooly appearance of white hairs, on its leaf and flower structures that creates the flower’s hairy and silvery character. It grows to heights of 16 inches and develops its flower into a double-star formation between the months of July and September. These patterns make it highly recognizable as a birth flower.

8:19p

;)

Edelwiess

8:20p

"He who fights with monsters should be careful lest he thereby become a monster. And if thou gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into thee."

8:21p

JUST BREATHE

8:22p

18...

8:34p

"...efficient professional compulsive consumers."

8:40p

Reading an e-mail from Abbey...

8:47p

I don't know how to respond...

Opening another notepad to organize my thoughts in text...

I might drink another energy drink... I dunno...

I think if I respond to that e-mail now I'll end up rescinding on being willing/able to give her time to herself.

It's not so much "If you don't have anything nice to say..." It's more about not going back on my word and our agreement about giving her time to herself. -- If you don't have anything HELPFUL to say, then say nothing at all. As such, I cannot, currently, respond.

9:01p

Doing my best to resist temptation...

Trying to stave off drinking another energy drink with smoking a cigarette instead...

9:15p
9:31p still resisting the energy drink. time for a smoke break.
9:32p

Forgot to put my cubes in the fridge... :(

9:50p

Boy am I glad I didn't have that energy drink... It's already feeling like it's going to be difficult to fall asleep tonight....

10:16p

11:10p
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11:18p
Silver Surfer synchronicity...
This tumblr is about as close as it gets to perfection next to mine. I am impressed, I am in awe.

11:20 I've genuinely said "Whoa" outloud like a dozen times now, this is almost too much to handle! Now at least I know why my tumblr isn't more popular. THEY AIN'T READY.

Silver Surfer synchronicity keeps intensifying...

11:59p I am so content to be distracted by this tumblr right now...

12:02a

ALIEN VS. PREDATOR. OH. I GET IT NOW.
"Alien" Vs. "Predator"!!!

12:04a
I have to stop myself at January or I never will!

12:15a

Okay. I concede. I am past the point of being in denial about being overwhelmed. This is the best Tumblr I have ever seen in my life. Nearly equal to my own. I am -officially- beyond overwhelmed.

12:49a

Gettin' some protein down the hatch so I sleep well and remain both thermogenic and anabolic.

I want to chill my balls off tomorrow and hit it hard again on wednesday. I wanna get back into fitness. I -AM- getting back into fitness.

12:50a

I need a more cheerful wallpaper... My current one is depressing... I'd chosen that specifically and on purpose, but I'm past that now. I think.

12:51a

1:08a
Unleashed some anger in a draft. Feeling focused, but not tired, unfortunately.

Gonna try to wind down here in a bit...

Shoulda started sooner...

Ooo! Maybe nude zazen before bed, too!

1:10a

1:41a
During the 1980s and early 1990s, Schwarzenegger appeared in many cup noodle and energy drink ads. Known as "Schwa-chan," his catchphrase was "daijou-V," a wordplay on "daijoubu" ("okay" in Japanese) and the "V" in energy drink he was selling, Alinamin V.

THAT LOOKS CURIOUSLY LIKE VITAMIN V.

SO JAPAN IS LITERALLY 20 TO 30 YEARS AHEAD OF ME IN THE FUTURE.

I'd seen his Japanese commercials before, but I'd never really noticed the V or "alinamin" until studying the language and having friends refer to me as Vitamin V. What a lovely little overlap. Does my heart well.

Alinamin V (アリナミンV)

Uuuuh... Looking up the drink rendered some videos and screencaps, one of which that looks to say something along the lines of Majin V something....

Fully translating now...

Real weird guy hours. Yo if you up contemplate what that Like button is and if you were to press it WHO REALLY would be pressing it.

魔人 - majin - demon - magic man

魔人V、未日。

2a

Nothing good ever happens after 2AM they say... I think it's time to go to bed...

愛の人、魔人V。

WEIRD.

very weird.
wary veered.

BUI.

THEY PRONOUNCE V: 'BUI' -- (ブイ)

ブイ

大丈夫

2:26a

Trying to speak daijobui got me daijobu i which got me だいじょうぶい
which means NOT OKAY.

As in, this is NOT OKAY. What the fuck am I doing to reality right now??? I really should go to bed....

2:28a

KONBANWA TOMODACHI
こんばんは友達

よし！

大丈夫ブイ

大丈夫v

大丈ブイ

ちちんブイブイ

「魔人Vが行く」

ちちんブイブイ。
僕の名前は、魔人V。
あなたにあげよう。
愛にあふれるVパワー。
ギスギス厳しい世の中だけど、
どっこい、僕がついている、だいじょーブイ。
Vドリンクで、だいじょーブイ。

ちちんぷいぷい

2:48a

「ちちんVV（ブイブイ）」

2:50a

たいじよ一ブイブイ maybe?

3a

One last tumblr scroll and cigarette and then seriously, bed time.

3:14a

DAI-JO-BUI

Meh. I've waited this long. I might as well wait until the morning when I wake up to publish this...

3:28a
3:54a
3:59a
cig

4:20a

こんばんは。本当に。

おはよう？
朝？
おはよう、ですか？
朝、ですか？

5:21a
Still up... can't sleep... can't stop dickin' arahn on 'em innernets...

There was also a scientific explanation for their abhorrence. Director Gaspar Noé added low-frequency background noise to the soundtrack of his revenge thriller. Though such extreme bass waves are inaudible to humans, infrasound "has been demonstrated to induce anxiety, extreme sorrow, heart palpitations and shivering," the BBC reported in 2013. "Naturally-occurring infrasound has been associated with areas of 'supernatural activity' as well as being produced prior to natural disasters such as storms and earthquakes."


"Fear Frequency" you say?

7:02a -- Uh-oh... It's morning.... :/

10:08a --- Why am I still up....

OH YEAH. BECAUSE ABBEY ISN'T HERE.

11a
I should just consider drankin' ern ernergy berverage at this point and rollin' through into the day...

8p

Someone knocked sometime between 12p and ~7:30p...

Not Abbey. Don't care.

I should have known from the start that you were lying.

That's all you ever do.
That's all you've ever done.
That's all you're capable of doing.

That's all anyone does.
That's all anyone ever does.
That's all anyone is capable of doing.

I did know, though, I think. I just did that stupid hope thing again. Idiot. Fucking idiot.

I knew it, you're just softening me up and buttering me up to get what you want. To trick me into compliance.

You never really had any honest intention of getting back together with me and working things out, did you?

You were just stringing me along waiting for the right moment to strike. Setting me up for the big fat kill.

When am I -FINALLY- gonna be able to stop trusting others?

How have I lasted this long?!

Why the fuck couldn't you have just told me the truth, Mom?

Why the fuck did you have to raise me to be honest?
More importantly how could you callously implant the expectation in me to take others at their word?

There is literally no one else on this planet as consistently honest as me.

I'm the sole member of my species.

Veritas Sapiens.

Like any other species that dwindles to one member, I am endangered.

I have no hopes of finding a mate.

There is simply no one else like me, and there likely never will be.

8:10p
8.2
8.2.16

8.11p
I'm going crazy. I know full well that I can do this on my own. I simply do not fucking want to. What's the fucking point?

What's the fucking point of living if you don't have someone to share it with?

8:12p

Leave me alone.

Let me be.

Leave me alone to waste and wither away completely.

Stop teasing me. Stop getting my hopes up.

8:13p

8:15p

Goku, you fucking dolt, when are you gonna get it through your thick stubborn skull that no one else is like you?

No one else, in your plane of existence at least, shares your penchant for forthright honesty.

8.2.16 - 8:16p
It's so fucking hot, I just wish I could fucking sleep...

I just want to sleep.

I just want to sleep forever.

I juuuuust want to sleep for-evverrrr.....

Wake me up, when reality ends...

11:40p

She's either going to come back, or she isn't. It's time to come to terms with that fact and accept it.

11:43p

I'm done pretending that I am okay.
I am not okay.

My facade has slipped...
I am bare...

11:50p

だいじょうぶい

8.3

12:03a

If a Pokémon were holding a pokéball as you through a pokéball at it, or recalled it into a pokéball, would the pokéball go back inside with it?

???

I'm sure in the Pokéverse the tech has a failsafe against such a thing... but if it didn't... What if it didn't? .... O.o
-- Infinite Pokéverse...

Pokéverse......

POCKET UNIVERSE.

12:08a

Proofreading this entry...

12:09a

Closing some more tabs first...

2:37a

I can't keep crying like this. I think I've lost and am losing legitimate pounds of body-weight resulting simply from dehydration due to constant prolonged intense crying.

I am literally melting and dripping out of my eyeballs, my aqua vitae returning to the aether from whence it came...

I don't understand how I can be so numb and yet still in so much pain...

I'm hurting so bad...

I hurt so much...

I just fucking can't take this any more...

I wish I could just be all the way numb and clock out or, honestly, I wish the pain would dominate so I could get angry and channel the energy into fitness and thus channel it into being productive and taking care of myself. But I can't... I just can't.......

I just can't do this anymore...

2:40a

I wanna go home....

2:41a

La recherche de l'absolu
La recherche de absolu
l'absolu
absolu
Ab Sol U
Ab Soul You

Without Soul You

Without Your Soul

Without Sol You

Without Your Sol
Without Your Sun
Without Your Sunshine

2:45a

How can I be expected to live and continue living without My Soul?
How can I be expected to live and continue living without My Sol? My Sun? My Sunshine?
How can I be expected to live and continue living without My Sun?
How can I be expected to live and continue living without My Sunshine?
How can I be expected to live and continue living without My Soul, My Sun, My Sunshine?

PLEASE DON'T TAKE MY SUNSHINE AWAY. 

2:47a
2:48a
2:49a

3:42a

Another veil has been lifted.

Hello Frank. ;) Sorry I Josh around so much, I'll try to be more Frank.

Frankincense
Frank-In-[A]Sense

3:43a

Abbey, I really wish you were here with me right now, I really want to talk to you. I have a lot to explain. A lot that should bring peace to both of us. A lot that would let you finally forgive yourself, accept yourself, and love yourself. I understand now.

Heh.

I understand, now.
I understand "now."

3:45a

You Are Love Frank Ocean.
You Are Living Forever Once.

"You Are Luhh"
(originally by The Isley Brothers)

When I feel what I feel
Sometimes it's hard to tell you so
You may not be in the mood to learn
What you think you know
There are times when I find
You wanna keep yourself from me
When I don't have the strength
I'm just a mirror of what I see

But at your best you are love
You're the positive motivating force within my life
If you ever feel the need to wonder why
Let me know, let me know
(Luhh) Let me know

When you feel what you feel
It's hard for me to understand
So many things have taken place before this love affair began
But if you feel more like I feel
Confusion can give way to doubt
For there are times when I fall short of what I say
What I say I'm all about

But at your best you are love
You're the positive motivating force within my life
Should you ever feel the need to wonder why
Let me know, let me know
(Luhh)

Tell me what it is
What it is, no need to make believe
Look beyond your world
Try to find, find a place for me

Cuz when you're at your best you are love
You're the positive motivating force within my life
Should you ever feel the need to wonder why
Let me know, let me know

Stay at your best, baby (oh oh oh)
Let me know, let me know

3:49a

3:57a

Trusting in the plan and the pace! I will see Abbey again when the time is right! Not sooner or later! Believe it! -- I am going to do my best to remain patient, but it's already been so hard so I know it won't be easy.

corolla - the petals of a flower, typically forming a whorl within the sepals and enclosing the reproductive organs.

花冠

The word "Toyoda" uses ten Japanese strokes to write while "Toyota" uses only eight. Eight is considered a lucky number in Japanese culture. For these reasons "Toyota" was chosen as the company's name.

to-yoda

Since toyoda literally means "fertile rice paddies", changing the name also prevented the company from being associated with old-fashioned farming.

トヨダ
トヨタ

The name Suzuki (鈴木 ?) is a common Japanese surname meaning "bell wood", "bell tree" or "bud tree". As of 2008, it is the second most common, after Satō, surname in Japan, with 1.9 million people registered. It is also used for many businesses.

5:13a

Corolla Fielder...

5:21a

unite the seven......

AQUAMAN...

5:35a

Smokin' my second to last cigarette...

When I return inside I'll finish proofreading this entry, take a short scroll through my tumblr posts and then conk out for some much needed, much deserved ZZzZZzZZZZzzzzs....

5:36a

I need to draw a line in advance, so if I end up adding to this I can only do so until 6a then I must draft an entirely new entry. This one is already damn long enough as is!

5:37a