קליפות ἀποκάλυψις [Zombie Apocalypse]

The Qliphoth, Qelippot or Klippot (Heb. קליפות) literally "peels", "shells" or "husks"

Talmudic Qlippoth – The Talmud claims that the Klippoth are the 'empty shells' of ancient divine powers that still contain isolated sparks giving them a basic limited conciousness. Zombie Gods seperated from the living Deity. Later versions extended this to the mindless 'shells' of the dead, elemental remnants and 'thoughtforms'. Some moralistic teachings also claim these are the bodies of Man after the Fall (physical and/or astral). A broader though darker versions claim that all matter contains such creative 'fallen sparks'. Thus all material bodies vaguely conscious on this reading and Kliphotic and the focus of separation from the 'Godhead'. , demonising matter.

An apocalypse (Ancient Greek: ἀποκάλυψις apokálypsis, from ἀπό and καλύπτω, literally meaning "an uncovering") is a disclosure of knowledge or revelation.

whisky's sweet sting on my lips,
soft sups of puffs of smoke,
my only embrace, my only kiss

numb, cold, quiet.. this is the only place left for me to be

without decay

[refrigerated soul]

preserved...

someone will hold me again one day, right?

for now I sleep in the standing silence, the hollow chill

cannablisssssssssss swept from the abyss, for a bit...

her fangs indent her lips
tongue traces gum, sneaks out to moisten surface
*bite*

hot sulfur excoriates/razes the nostrils

were you even there?

spirit on ice

frozen core

frost lingers on my coat, my hair, my hat, my beard, my lungs....

empty spin the bottle points to briefcase..
maroon's not really my color... burgundy...

matchstix are piling up at my feet...

another green hit...

a shower sounds nice...

music sounds nice...

itch itch
scratch scratch

skratch dat itch

no matter what you do

you are a prisoner, looking for to be

you can change your face but you can't change your mind...

The word “assassin” derives from a secretive murder cult in the 11th and 12th centuries called the “Hashishin”, meaning “hashish eaters”. While much of the origin of this cult has been lost, the original leader was Hasan Ben Sabah, a prominent devotee of Isma'ili beliefs.

A Sect of Iranian Shi'a Islamic Muslim which existed during the crusades. Founded by Hassan Sabah at the fortress of Alamut in 1090 A.D. They were known for Assassinating leaders of the knights templar, often under the influence of the drug hashish. Brought into the light in recent times by the game Assassins Creed, where the player character is a Hashashin assassin.
Person One: "I love the hashashin!"
Person Two: "Why?"
Person One: "If not for them, we would not be smoking hash !"

"By one single warrior on foot," wrote one Ismaili poet, "a king may be stricken with terror, though he owns more than 100,000 horsemen." The daggers of the assassins were named fidais, or faithful.

陰陽道

鬼- "In Japanese versions of the game tag, the player who is "it" is instead called the "oni".

There is also a well known game in Japan called kakure oni (隠れ鬼), which means "hidden oni", or more commonly kakurenbo, which is the same as the hide-and-seek game that children in western countries play."

悪い子はいねえか

鬼門

"Another source for the oni's image is a concept from China and Onmyōdō. The northeast direction was once termed the kimon (鬼門, "demon gate"), and was considered an unlucky direction through which evil spirits passed. Based on the assignment of the twelve zodiac animals to the cardinal directions, the kimon was also known as the ushitora (丑寅), or "Ox Tiger" direction, and the oni's bovine horns and cat-like fangs, claws, and tiger-skin loincloth developed as a visual depiction of this term.

Temples are often built facing that direction, and Japanese buildings sometimes have L-shaped indentions at the northeast to ward oni away. Enryakuji, on Mount Hiei northeast of the center of Kyoto, and Kaneiji, in that direction from Edo Castle, are examples. The Japanese capital itself moved northeast from Nagaoka to Kyoto in the 8th century."

鬼に金棒

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mister_Negative

Whispers of War: Lineage, an Inhuman with the ability to absorb the life force of other Inhumans and have their faces appear on his skin...

In order to understand the concept of big and little endian, you need to understand memory. Fortunately, we only need a very high level abstraction for memory.

Words may be represented in big-endian or little-endian format. With big-endian the most significant byte of a word is stored at a particular memory address and the subsequent bytes are stored in the following higher memory addresses, the least significant byte thus being stored at the highest memory address.

Big-endian and little-endian are terms that describe the order in which a sequence of bytes are stored in computer memory. Big-endian is an order in which the "big end" (most significant value in the sequence) is stored first (at the lowest storage address).

slooww-goin' this mornin'...

6:32a

Abbey woke me gently, softly, sweetly, with a cup of coffee and a glass of water...

We listened to some tunes and got ready to get out the door so we could cash a lottery ticket in order for her to have bux fo' da bus...

6:34a

The urge to fall back asleep is strong with this one...

6:35a

So many possibilities for what to do today!

Gonna jump on ze bewks and respond to my messages and my birthday wishes instead of continuin' bein' the [accidental/unintentional] rude-ass that I have been. [ごめんなさい]

6:43a

Continuing to distract myself awake...

7:05a

"The mountain range of my heart as the sun hits it's high plains--
May the water run it's course and cleanse me of any shame.

This body is my vessel,
The vehicle through which all spirit shines,
Where ancestors speak,
And fleeting emotions weep.

All the things come to collect here and must be processed.
All the joy and pain and emptiness and fullness rests here,
At the heart of the mother.

I surrender myself to the beauty walk within me.
I leave behind any framework that leaves me trying to think my way around things and delve deep into

FEELING my way around things.

Feeling it in the pit of my stomach,

The root of my hara.

Feeling the Earth call to me to be simple with it for a great long while.

Feeling it pull me strongly
by my intuition, and the lightness of mind that comes with that.

'Welcome home' the leaves whisper,

'You were made to flow it all through you' the creek burbles.

'You are changing, you a re-arranging' the fire cackles.

'I want to hear your song' the Earth echoes in every sacred and malnourished space.

And back to you, I call.

I dig deep and sing for you

I am here. I love you. You are love itself.

I will sing to you,

Every day.

And the beauty of your mountains and waters reflect back to me how grateful I am

To be here to live it."

7:20a

ビリギャル

7:50a
smoke break

9:23a
using tumblr as a means of procrastination... versus responding to my birthday wishes/messages... I've put them off for so long that tackling them now is a bit daunting...

Fighting the urge to nap...

9:25a
9:51a

I'm so mentally exhausted from all of the fighting with Abbey all through my birthday and Christmas... I just can't seem to muster up the energy to be pleasant, mindful, and grateful...

*long sigh*

9:53a

On one hand I feel like a huge prick for blowing everyone off, but on the other stronger mightier hand I feel that it's better than drowning them in my negativity during my struggles...

9:55a
stupid cig...

10:06a
reheatin' some 'za, seein' if it wakes me up or puts me out...

10:19a
that seems to've done the trick...

already desirin' another cig... *sigh* this shit has got to stop......

10:20a

tried for all of .2 seconds to assess if I wanted a cup of coffee with my cig, and nope, the little nicotine addict was like, "How about just a cig and NOW?!" so sad when artisanal pairing of taste and experience is forgone for chemicals and fleeting rushes of transient pleasure

10:24a
*insert "cigarettes are bullies" clip*

10:32a

11a

11:10a

George Alexander Aberle, known as eden ahbez (April 15, 1908 – March 4, 1995), was an American songwriter and recording artist of the 1940s to 1960s, whose lifestyle in California was influential on the hippie movement. He was known to friends simply as ahbe. Ahbez composed the song "Nature Boy," which became a No. 1 hit for eight weeks in 1948 for Nat "King" Cole and has since become a pop and jazz standard.

Living a bucolic life from at least the 1940s, he travelled in sandals and wore shoulder-length hair and beard, and white robes. He camped out below the first L in the Hollywood Sign above Los Angeles and studied Oriental mysticism. He slept outdoors with his family and ate vegetables, fruits, and nuts. He claimed to live on three dollars per week.

"There was a boy, A very strange, enchanted boy, They say he wandered very far, Very far, over land and sea..."

11:26a

11:27a

There was a boy
A very strange enchanted boy
They say he wandered very far, very far
Over land and sea
A little shy and sad of eye
But very wise was he

And then one day
A magic day he passed my way
And while we spoke of many things
Fools and kings
This he said to me
The greatest thing you'll ever learn
Is just to love and be loved in return

The greatest thing you'll ever learn
Is just to love and be loved in return

11:29a
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9w-bQaysbf0
11:52a

Well I can't ever really believe
No one was sent to get me
And I feel like I'm being erased
No one got left here,
I'm all alone,
No one was sent to get me
I'm all alone, no one got left here

But I'm fine,
No one got left here,
Well I'm fine,
No one got left here,

I can't even breathe when I see,
The pictures sent without you,
And I feel like I'm being erased,
No one got left here
I'm all alone, no one was sent to get me,
I'm all alone, no one got left here,

I'm so sick of this terrible instinct
It's so hard now just to find you
So sick of the terrible instinct,
I can only find you

11:53a

Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel off the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands
Oh, I do love you

Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
We do it all the time
Blowing out my mind

You got this look I can't describe
You make me feel I'm alive
When everything else is all fake
Without a doubt you're on my side
Heaven has been away too long
Can't find the words to write this song
Oh, your love

Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
We do it all the time
Blowing out my mind
Yeah

I have come to understand the way it is
It's not a secret anymore
'Cause we've been through that before
From tonight I know that you're the only one
I've been confused and in the dark
Now I understand
Yeah, yeah

Ooo, ooo

I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
I wonder why it is
I won't let my guard down
For anyone but you
We do it all the time
Blowing out my mind

Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel off the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands

11:54a

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gvH9Ccqk5qc

11:55a

12:08p
"Ripley rents an expensive apartment in Rome and spends a lonely Christmas buying expensive presents for himself."

whinkin' drisky

1:09p

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IBw8Jz7IwUY

1:15p

took on an entire army of rebels by himself, and when told he was surrounded, said “all i’m surrounded by is fear and dead men”

1:16p

1:32p
Broke Smeak

1:48p
Tisky & Whumblr --  "Helpin' me maintain my sleep schedule since noon!" - Says one Satisfied Vish

1:56p
https://www.trulia.com/blog/what-you-need-to-buy-a-house/

2:01p
Put Your Hands Up - Benny Benassi

2:02p
Typically, you’ll get the best interest rate on a loan if your score is 740 and above. “A higher credit score should net you a lower mortgage rate,”

2:06p
Get preapproved

When a lender gives your financials the once-over and preapproves you for a mortgage, you’ll be able to show sellers that you really can buy their house. But how do you get preapproved? By preparing a few documents, which you can do several months in advance of the actual purchase.

Here’s what you need to buy a house.

Tax returns for the past two years
W-2 forms for the past two years
Paycheck stubs from the past few months
Proof of mortgage or rent payments for the past year
A list of all your debts, including credit cards, student loans, auto loans, and alimony
A list of all your assets, including bank statements, auto titles, real estate, and any investment accounts.

2:13p

2:14p

That's it? Need something productive to do... something wise to spend my time on...

BABYSTEPS.
Laundry???

2:15p

Punch Drunk - Incubus

2:16p

clip nails?!

2:17p
R.I.P. Dr. James Pitcavage

2:26p

peepees - smokies - wippskies

~5:30p
Abs is home, walkin' to get her buss pass

~7:30p

Watchin' 'War Of The Worlds' and eatin' Las Palmas tacos...

~11:30p
bed

12.6.2016

"Tell me. After my head has been chopped off, will I still be able to hear, at least for a moment, the sound of my own blood gushing from the stump of my neck? That would be a pleasure to end all pleasures."

Peter Kurten, AKA "The Vampire of Dusseldorf," killed somewhere between 9 and 60 adults and children. He drank the blood of at least one of his victims, as well as raped and beat many more. He was executed by guillotine on July 2, 1931.

'Okay, talk is over, words are placid and weak. Back it with action or it all comes off cheap. Watch close while I work now, feel the electric shock of my touch, open your trembling flower, or your petals I'll crush.'
- Irael Keyes

And, of course, the funniest food: "kumquats". I don't even bring them home anymore. I sit there laughing and they go to waste.
"Fussy Eater, Pt. 1"

12.6.2016

Walked Abs to the bus. Drank some coffee, smoked some cigs.

6:22a

Plannin' my day...

Pea-coat drop off at dry-cleaners... Looking up time/price... -- 9a, no prices listed... gonna wing it...

6:27a

1$ and up - 9a -- little drawers - ~$15
CVS - 10a - little drawers/hair dryer?/tissues/drank - ~<$40
CoGo's - 24hr - torch(s)/cigs - ~$25

6:3a

A-BOSS opticians... -- 9a ~$20
Chuong's - 9a ~$20

6:48a

To Do:
DG - Slippies exchange/2nd purr
Gather/Take Trash out
Call bank
Westworld? Black Mirror?
Laundry
Shower
reorganize bag
reorganize drawers

7:10a - smokies

8:22a
Shower

10:12a
waitin' on a call back from the bank...
10:13a
laundry gathered, trash gathered...

11:10a

Oot n' aboot fer cherrz

12p

coats: dropped off, frames: [impulsively] replaced

now for laundy n otha erranz

12:01p

3:53p
Done.

4:01p
1$ + up...