Monday, September 11, 2017

5 Year Anniversary

5 Year Anniversary

9.11.2012 -- 9.11.2017

~6:30a

Wake up. Coffee + Cigarette.

~7:30a - 8:30a

Gym.

4 clementines, 1 banana, 2 eggs, 8 oz. vanilla yogurt, cinnamon, ice, blended. One for me lady speeding out the door and one for me chillin' on the floor. Put towels away. Lit incense.

9:45a

Head to library. Library doesn't open til 10.

10:14a

Caught back up to the present.

10:15a

Bathroom break, BRB.

10:27a

Someone tried the handle. Someone knocked.

Cigarette. Water Fountain.

10:28a

IT'S MY 5 YEAR ANNIVERSARY WITH ABBEY!!!

11:25a

Quittin' cigs today. TODAY. 9.11

11:26a

Transferring pix off phone... Getting ready to upload...

11:42a

Peein' like it's my job, today...

12:17p

Lunch time, and I am hungry for it!!

12:18p

Think I'll head home here in a bit to grubbify.

1:02p

Gettin' HAWN-GRAY.

1:04p

Gotta nice stack o' moobies to kill time with until Abs gets home

today...

1:05p

1:18a

About to head home, will publish this first and update later on tonight!

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2:02p

Home. 3 hard-boiled eggs and one nissin bowl noodles.

The Bye-Bye Man.

2:03p

24 oz. High Life #2 + cig

2:17p

7 Cigarettes Remaining.

3:20p

6 Cigarettes Remaining.

3:21p

3:47p

Suddenly quite toasted.

4:12p

Pix: taken.

Missin' Abbey.

4:20p

Smigarette: Smokked.

4:21p

Beer Trois: spippin' awn.

Baq 2 d moobie

4:22p

4:45p

4 Cigarettes Remaining.

4:46p

5:24p

3 Cigarettes Remaining.

5:35p

Nap til Abs gets home.

7:10p

Woken up by a pretty little girl sittin' on ma peepee.

7:11p

9:09p

Coconut moscato smoothies n' CASABLANCA.

9:10p

Smoke break!

10:41p

Steak Salads.

Monday, August 28, 2017

Revival

8.28.17 -- 11:15a

Awoken by the downstairs hair salon playing music loudly...

11:19a

Burnt/overcooked my oatmeal...

11:20a

Gonna try on a grey suit that's tucked in the back of my closet, that I'd long since forgotten about, because I think my black shoes and brown shirt would match it better than trying to pair any of shoes with my navy suit....

11:22a

My writing/sequence of thought is atrocious these days.... Ah well, 'tis an atrophied muscles, 'twill recover...

11:25a

Waking up a lot later than I wanted to... I wanted to check on a job prospect on the boulevard. Remaining calm and moving forward. This gives me time to have my glasses tightened and re-aligned 1st which will lessen my anxiety and add to my confidence whilst pursuing local employment.

11:27a

Microwave cleaned after oatmeal disaster...

11:29a

Pulled the suit out of the closet...

Time to get a little to-do list for the day together...

Shower.
Get dressed.
Get glasses tightened/realigned.
See about employment.
Check account balance.
Get dressed for the gym.
Walk to the gym.
Work out.
Walk home.
Get bus day pass on the way home.
Feast.
Chores.

11:33a

11:37a

Forgot to brush my teeth upon waking... Brushing them after my 1st meal seems a decent consolation prize.

11:38a

11:43a

Teeth: brushed.

Time to try on this suit!

Pants, too short, way too tight in the seat and thigh. *sigh* Jacket is dece but snug.

Shower: complete.

12:47p

Time to go see about moy glesses. *fnar fnar fnar*

12:48p

Glasses: tightened.
Danny: met.
Application: retrieved.

1:05p

Filling out application now.
2 oranges: eaten.

1:54p

Application: turned in.

1:55p

Now, the waiting game. Gonna check other spots on the boulevard. Gotta check my account balance.

2:03p

Checking my balance, then off to CVS for an app/to see if they are hiring... Then back home to drop the laptop off and then back out to get my bus pass for tomorrow...

2:14p

At the library challenging the faulty battery. A race against time.

2:18p

$9.13 -  Just enough for a bus pass.

2:25p

Gonna go take care of that 1st. Well, 2nd, after visiting CVS.

2:44p

Home.

CVS does its applications online. So maybe later tonight or tomorrow.

Still dressed nice and breathably, gonna head on out to snag my bus pass.

2:45p

Reading about ACV. Apple Cider Vinegar. Must research basil.

2:52p

Shot of ACV.
Off to get bus pass. 1 mile, 2 roundtrip.

4:20

Home.

Change of clothes. Bathroom break.

4:29p

Fantasizing about post-work-out recovery food... Milkshake mayhaps....

4:30

Eating a giant Russian/Turkish Kit-Kat called DiDO... Pretty damned dece...

4:34p

Wishing I had internet and/or a bus schedule... I dunno what time to leave tomorrow... 11?

4:39p

Calling Port Authority now...

4:40p

10:23, 11:03, 11:43, 12:23

4:44p

11's lookin' like the best time. So some time between 10:45 and 10:55, I wanna be leaving the house.

Time for some more hydration and then it's off to the gym! 4 miles out, 8 miles roundtrip.

4:46p

Leavin' the phone at home to clear distractions and keep my shorts/pockets light.

4:47p

Quick read on ACV.

4:54p

Leaving now!

Mum texted about bank stuff.

4:57p

Leaving *now*!! ;)

7:50p

Home. Weight: 194 lbs. Making a milkshake.

8:05p

Milkshake. A bit yogurt-y, but I gotta get -some- use outta this otherwise woefully bland thin-mint ice cream. 2 whole raw eggs, about a 1/3 cup vanilla yogurt and about 1 1/2 cups ice cream. Not the tastiest shake I've had in my life, but it's still pretty bang-on as far as what my body needs.

8:11p

Talking to my Dad on the phone.

8:12p

Sunday, August 27, 2017

Back On Da Brix

8.27.2017 - 6:12p

I sit here in the game room of my apartment, 'Aladdin' in the DVD player, paused on screen... My alarm for church just went off...

6:13p

In front of me is a big beautiful bowl of salad. Spinach, Kale, Carrots, Tomatoes, Black Olives, Green Peppers, Cashews, Hard-Boiled Eggs, Pickles...

6:16p

My heart is heavy from what I've been through and for what I am still yet to go through...

Aladdin will have to wait, I have a date with God.

6:17p

Praying selfishly that the service really speaks to me specifically. I need it. Sorely.

6:19p

This salad is massive and seeing as how as I'm going to have to ration food even *more* intelligently than I already do, until a source of income is secured, I've decided to have a couple more bites and then store the rest for later tonight...

6:20p

Thus far this has served to center me rather nicely. I'd missed it.

6:21p

TV off. DVD Player off.

6:22p

I sure hope I fall asleep at a decent hour tonight. I plan on taking melatonin in order to facilitate that goal...

6:23p

6:27p

Salad put away, bringing my basil back inside and watering it...

Donning my flops and heading to the Tree Of Life...

6:28p

8:27p
8.27.2017-8:27p

Revival.

I took communion barefoot.

8:28p

2 shots Apple Cider Vinegar.

Dishes done. Counter wiped. Cutting board cleaned.

8:42p

Time to make the bed.

8:44p

Gonna tentatively play some tunes. Might overwhelm me... We'll see...

8:45p

The tune from "UP" and yep, it's wrecking me.... Oh God... I miss my baby so much. This song has been going through my head all day... Hearing it externally is quite difficult. -- My 1st good real cry of the whole ordeal...

8:47p

8:48p

'Her Majesty' by the Beatles... -- Yep, looks like silence will be best for now.

8:49p

9:25p

Bed's made.

Hungry but I wanna accomplish a few more goals before I reward myself with food.

9:57p

Bedding's put away.

No dishes in sink.

Mirrors still need hung, but I'm going to leave that for tomorrow.

9:58p

Time to get back into this salad and to enjoy some Aladdin.

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

5.1

5.1 4:12

I can't hold all this in anymore. I need an outlet.

4:16

3 rocks float in maker's mark in a neat thick-bottomed glass...

Looking at pictures of my sister and her husband with my 2 nephews... One of whom, I haven't even met... I teared up a bit and then ran for my bubba, my bink, my whipskee, my daddy joops....

I don't even want to drink it. I don't even want to drink....

What else is there to do?

4:19

No cannabis, no food, no one to talk to... Whip-ski is all I gots....

*sip*

4:21

An old friend/co-worker hitting me up in the opportune time, in the opportune way... Too tangled and personal of a synchronicity to explain, but I'll over summarize, The Hollywood Theater is having a Mother's Day celebration showing the Sound Of Music and serving breakfast with it... I'd love to take my Mum to that.... An old buddy just out-of-the-blue messages me a meme/macro of Sister Maria singing to the children with the text reading "Cut my life into pieces, this is my last resort"....

4:23

Rocks are melted, half-glass remains....

4:24

4:29

4:37

Got pleasantly distracted by a buddy's inquiry in a thread..... Too bad it didn't last long....

*finish*

4:38

Wish I had sumpin' to smoak awn..... Or eat....

4:39

I'm gonna go pour another drink....

4:41

Well, I went to get a single ice cube... I have the whisky on the desk with me.....

I can't wait for Abbey to get home with her Galaxy S3, there is a picture I really wanna take.... But the opportunity might fade if not capitalized on soon....

4:42

4:51

I'm not really too sure how to friends....

4:53

People keep deleting me, and it keeps hurting...

4:56

Whisky feels good....

5:06

Whisky won't delete me...

5:07

Abbey's home.... Picture time...

5:13

5:15

The phone's dead, has to recharge, hopefully the picture will last....

5:17

5:26

5:54

6:03

I'm so fucking hungry... I just wish I had -REAL- food to eat...

6:04

Tuesday, January 3, 2017

New Year, Old Me

A Return To Vish

New Year's Resolutions:
[Once-A-Day, At Least] -

Handstand
Zazen
Selfie
Fridge Pic
Blog
FB B-Days

keep getting rid of trash, keep streamlining

The less you own, the better!

Does it have a use? Does it have a purpose? To whom?

Portable Harddrive.......