5 Year Anniversary
9.11.2012 -- 9.11.2017
~6:30a
Wake up. Coffee + Cigarette.
~7:30a - 8:30a
Gym.
4 clementines, 1 banana, 2 eggs, 8 oz. vanilla yogurt, cinnamon, ice, blended. One for me lady speeding out the door and one for me chillin' on the floor. Put towels away. Lit incense.
9:45a
Head to library. Library doesn't open til 10.
10:14a
Caught back up to the present.
10:15a
Bathroom break, BRB.
10:27a
Someone tried the handle. Someone knocked.
Cigarette. Water Fountain.
10:28a
IT'S MY 5 YEAR ANNIVERSARY WITH ABBEY!!!
11:25a
Quittin' cigs today. TODAY. 9.11
11:26a
Transferring pix off phone... Getting ready to upload...
11:42a
Peein' like it's my job, today...
12:17p
Lunch time, and I am hungry for it!!
12:18p
Think I'll head home here in a bit to grubbify.
1:02p
Gettin' HAWN-GRAY.
1:04p
Gotta nice stack o' moobies to kill time with until Abs gets home
today...
1:05p
1:18a
About to head home, will publish this first and update later on tonight!
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2:02p
Home. 3 hard-boiled eggs and one nissin bowl noodles.
The Bye-Bye Man.
2:03p
24 oz. High Life #2 + cig
2:17p
7 Cigarettes Remaining.
3:20p
6 Cigarettes Remaining.
3:21p
3:47p
Suddenly quite toasted.
4:12p
Pix: taken.
Missin' Abbey.
4:20p
Smigarette: Smokked.
4:21p
Beer Trois: spippin' awn.
Baq 2 d moobie
4:22p
4:45p
4 Cigarettes Remaining.
4:46p
5:24p
3 Cigarettes Remaining.
5:35p
Nap til Abs gets home.
7:10p
Woken up by a pretty little girl sittin' on ma peepee.
7:11p
9:09p
Coconut moscato smoothies n' CASABLANCA.
9:10p
Smoke break!
10:41p
Steak Salads.
Monday, September 11, 2017
Monday, August 28, 2017
Revival
8.28.17 -- 11:15a
Awoken by the downstairs hair salon playing music loudly...
11:19a
Burnt/overcooked my oatmeal...
11:20a
Gonna try on a grey suit that's tucked in the back of my closet, that I'd long since forgotten about, because I think my black shoes and brown shirt would match it better than trying to pair any of shoes with my navy suit....
11:22a
My writing/sequence of thought is atrocious these days.... Ah well, 'tis an atrophied muscles, 'twill recover...
11:25a
Waking up a lot later than I wanted to... I wanted to check on a job prospect on the boulevard. Remaining calm and moving forward. This gives me time to have my glasses tightened and re-aligned 1st which will lessen my anxiety and add to my confidence whilst pursuing local employment.
11:27a
Microwave cleaned after oatmeal disaster...
11:29a
Pulled the suit out of the closet...
Time to get a little to-do list for the day together...
Shower.
Get dressed.
Get glasses tightened/realigned.
See about employment.
Check account balance.
Get dressed for the gym.
Walk to the gym.
Work out.
Walk home.
Get bus day pass on the way home.
Feast.
Chores.
11:33a
11:37a
Forgot to brush my teeth upon waking... Brushing them after my 1st meal seems a decent consolation prize.
11:38a
11:43a
Teeth: brushed.
Time to try on this suit!
Pants, too short, way too tight in the seat and thigh. *sigh* Jacket is dece but snug.
Shower: complete.
12:47p
Time to go see about moy glesses. *fnar fnar fnar*
12:48p
Glasses: tightened.
Danny: met.
Application: retrieved.
1:05p
Filling out application now.
2 oranges: eaten.
1:54p
Application: turned in.
1:55p
Now, the waiting game. Gonna check other spots on the boulevard. Gotta check my account balance.
2:03p
Checking my balance, then off to CVS for an app/to see if they are hiring... Then back home to drop the laptop off and then back out to get my bus pass for tomorrow...
2:14p
At the library challenging the faulty battery. A race against time.
2:18p
$9.13 - Just enough for a bus pass.
2:25p
Gonna go take care of that 1st. Well, 2nd, after visiting CVS.
2:44p
Home.
CVS does its applications online. So maybe later tonight or tomorrow.
Still dressed nice and breathably, gonna head on out to snag my bus pass.
2:45p
Reading about ACV. Apple Cider Vinegar. Must research basil.
2:52p
Shot of ACV.
Off to get bus pass. 1 mile, 2 roundtrip.
4:20
Home.
Change of clothes. Bathroom break.
4:29p
Fantasizing about post-work-out recovery food... Milkshake mayhaps....
4:30
Eating a giant Russian/Turkish Kit-Kat called DiDO... Pretty damned dece...
4:34p
Wishing I had internet and/or a bus schedule... I dunno what time to leave tomorrow... 11?
4:39p
Calling Port Authority now...
4:40p
10:23, 11:03, 11:43, 12:23
4:44p
11's lookin' like the best time. So some time between 10:45 and 10:55, I wanna be leaving the house.
Time for some more hydration and then it's off to the gym! 4 miles out, 8 miles roundtrip.
4:46p
Leavin' the phone at home to clear distractions and keep my shorts/pockets light.
4:47p
Quick read on ACV.
4:54p
Leaving now!
Mum texted about bank stuff.
4:57p
Leaving *now*!! ;)
7:50p
Home. Weight: 194 lbs. Making a milkshake.
8:05p
Milkshake. A bit yogurt-y, but I gotta get -some- use outta this otherwise woefully bland thin-mint ice cream. 2 whole raw eggs, about a 1/3 cup vanilla yogurt and about 1 1/2 cups ice cream. Not the tastiest shake I've had in my life, but it's still pretty bang-on as far as what my body needs.
8:11p
Talking to my Dad on the phone.
8:12p
Awoken by the downstairs hair salon playing music loudly...
11:19a
Burnt/overcooked my oatmeal...
11:20a
Gonna try on a grey suit that's tucked in the back of my closet, that I'd long since forgotten about, because I think my black shoes and brown shirt would match it better than trying to pair any of shoes with my navy suit....
11:22a
My writing/sequence of thought is atrocious these days.... Ah well, 'tis an atrophied muscles, 'twill recover...
11:25a
Waking up a lot later than I wanted to... I wanted to check on a job prospect on the boulevard. Remaining calm and moving forward. This gives me time to have my glasses tightened and re-aligned 1st which will lessen my anxiety and add to my confidence whilst pursuing local employment.
11:27a
Microwave cleaned after oatmeal disaster...
11:29a
Pulled the suit out of the closet...
Time to get a little to-do list for the day together...
Shower.
Get dressed.
Get glasses tightened/realigned.
See about employment.
Check account balance.
Get dressed for the gym.
Walk to the gym.
Work out.
Walk home.
Get bus day pass on the way home.
Feast.
Chores.
11:33a
11:37a
Forgot to brush my teeth upon waking... Brushing them after my 1st meal seems a decent consolation prize.
11:38a
11:43a
Teeth: brushed.
Time to try on this suit!
Pants, too short, way too tight in the seat and thigh. *sigh* Jacket is dece but snug.
Shower: complete.
12:47p
Time to go see about moy glesses. *fnar fnar fnar*
12:48p
Glasses: tightened.
Danny: met.
Application: retrieved.
1:05p
Filling out application now.
2 oranges: eaten.
1:54p
Application: turned in.
1:55p
Now, the waiting game. Gonna check other spots on the boulevard. Gotta check my account balance.
2:03p
Checking my balance, then off to CVS for an app/to see if they are hiring... Then back home to drop the laptop off and then back out to get my bus pass for tomorrow...
2:14p
At the library challenging the faulty battery. A race against time.
2:18p
$9.13 - Just enough for a bus pass.
2:25p
Gonna go take care of that 1st. Well, 2nd, after visiting CVS.
2:44p
Home.
CVS does its applications online. So maybe later tonight or tomorrow.
Still dressed nice and breathably, gonna head on out to snag my bus pass.
2:45p
Reading about ACV. Apple Cider Vinegar. Must research basil.
2:52p
Shot of ACV.
Off to get bus pass. 1 mile, 2 roundtrip.
4:20
Home.
Change of clothes. Bathroom break.
4:29p
Fantasizing about post-work-out recovery food... Milkshake mayhaps....
4:30
Eating a giant Russian/Turkish Kit-Kat called DiDO... Pretty damned dece...
4:34p
Wishing I had internet and/or a bus schedule... I dunno what time to leave tomorrow... 11?
4:39p
Calling Port Authority now...
4:40p
10:23, 11:03, 11:43, 12:23
4:44p
11's lookin' like the best time. So some time between 10:45 and 10:55, I wanna be leaving the house.
Time for some more hydration and then it's off to the gym! 4 miles out, 8 miles roundtrip.
4:46p
Leavin' the phone at home to clear distractions and keep my shorts/pockets light.
4:47p
Quick read on ACV.
4:54p
Leaving now!
Mum texted about bank stuff.
4:57p
Leaving *now*!! ;)
7:50p
Home. Weight: 194 lbs. Making a milkshake.
8:05p
Milkshake. A bit yogurt-y, but I gotta get -some- use outta this otherwise woefully bland thin-mint ice cream. 2 whole raw eggs, about a 1/3 cup vanilla yogurt and about 1 1/2 cups ice cream. Not the tastiest shake I've had in my life, but it's still pretty bang-on as far as what my body needs.
8:11p
Talking to my Dad on the phone.
8:12p
Sunday, August 27, 2017
Back On Da Brix
8.27.2017 - 6:12p
I sit here in the game room of my apartment, 'Aladdin' in the DVD player, paused on screen... My alarm for church just went off...
6:13p
In front of me is a big beautiful bowl of salad. Spinach, Kale, Carrots, Tomatoes, Black Olives, Green Peppers, Cashews, Hard-Boiled Eggs, Pickles...
6:16p
My heart is heavy from what I've been through and for what I am still yet to go through...
Aladdin will have to wait, I have a date with God.
6:17p
Praying selfishly that the service really speaks to me specifically. I need it. Sorely.
6:19p
This salad is massive and seeing as how as I'm going to have to ration food even *more* intelligently than I already do, until a source of income is secured, I've decided to have a couple more bites and then store the rest for later tonight...
6:20p
Thus far this has served to center me rather nicely. I'd missed it.
6:21p
TV off. DVD Player off.
6:22p
I sure hope I fall asleep at a decent hour tonight. I plan on taking melatonin in order to facilitate that goal...
6:23p
6:27p
Salad put away, bringing my basil back inside and watering it...
Donning my flops and heading to the Tree Of Life...
6:28p
8:27p
8.27.2017-8:27p
Revival.
I took communion barefoot.
8:28p
2 shots Apple Cider Vinegar.
Dishes done. Counter wiped. Cutting board cleaned.
8:42p
Time to make the bed.
8:44p
Gonna tentatively play some tunes. Might overwhelm me... We'll see...
8:45p
The tune from "UP" and yep, it's wrecking me.... Oh God... I miss my baby so much. This song has been going through my head all day... Hearing it externally is quite difficult. -- My 1st good real cry of the whole ordeal...
8:47p
8:48p
'Her Majesty' by the Beatles... -- Yep, looks like silence will be best for now.
8:49p
9:25p
Bed's made.
Hungry but I wanna accomplish a few more goals before I reward myself with food.
9:57p
Bedding's put away.
No dishes in sink.
Mirrors still need hung, but I'm going to leave that for tomorrow.
9:58p
Time to get back into this salad and to enjoy some Aladdin.
I sit here in the game room of my apartment, 'Aladdin' in the DVD player, paused on screen... My alarm for church just went off...
6:13p
In front of me is a big beautiful bowl of salad. Spinach, Kale, Carrots, Tomatoes, Black Olives, Green Peppers, Cashews, Hard-Boiled Eggs, Pickles...
6:16p
My heart is heavy from what I've been through and for what I am still yet to go through...
Aladdin will have to wait, I have a date with God.
6:17p
Praying selfishly that the service really speaks to me specifically. I need it. Sorely.
6:19p
This salad is massive and seeing as how as I'm going to have to ration food even *more* intelligently than I already do, until a source of income is secured, I've decided to have a couple more bites and then store the rest for later tonight...
6:20p
Thus far this has served to center me rather nicely. I'd missed it.
6:21p
TV off. DVD Player off.
6:22p
I sure hope I fall asleep at a decent hour tonight. I plan on taking melatonin in order to facilitate that goal...
6:23p
6:27p
Salad put away, bringing my basil back inside and watering it...
Donning my flops and heading to the Tree Of Life...
6:28p
8:27p
8.27.2017-8:27p
Revival.
I took communion barefoot.
8:28p
2 shots Apple Cider Vinegar.
Dishes done. Counter wiped. Cutting board cleaned.
8:42p
Time to make the bed.
8:44p
Gonna tentatively play some tunes. Might overwhelm me... We'll see...
8:45p
The tune from "UP" and yep, it's wrecking me.... Oh God... I miss my baby so much. This song has been going through my head all day... Hearing it externally is quite difficult. -- My 1st good real cry of the whole ordeal...
8:47p
8:48p
'Her Majesty' by the Beatles... -- Yep, looks like silence will be best for now.
8:49p
9:25p
Bed's made.
Hungry but I wanna accomplish a few more goals before I reward myself with food.
9:57p
Bedding's put away.
No dishes in sink.
Mirrors still need hung, but I'm going to leave that for tomorrow.
9:58p
Time to get back into this salad and to enjoy some Aladdin.
Tuesday, May 2, 2017
5.1
5.1 4:12
I can't hold all this in anymore. I need an outlet.
4:16
3 rocks float in maker's mark in a neat thick-bottomed glass...
Looking at pictures of my sister and her husband with my 2 nephews... One of whom, I haven't even met... I teared up a bit and then ran for my bubba, my bink, my whipskee, my daddy joops....
I don't even want to drink it. I don't even want to drink....
What else is there to do?
4:19
No cannabis, no food, no one to talk to... Whip-ski is all I gots....
*sip*
4:21
An old friend/co-worker hitting me up in the opportune time, in the opportune way... Too tangled and personal of a synchronicity to explain, but I'll over summarize, The Hollywood Theater is having a Mother's Day celebration showing the Sound Of Music and serving breakfast with it... I'd love to take my Mum to that.... An old buddy just out-of-the-blue messages me a meme/macro of Sister Maria singing to the children with the text reading "Cut my life into pieces, this is my last resort"....
4:23
Rocks are melted, half-glass remains....
4:24
4:29
4:37
Got pleasantly distracted by a buddy's inquiry in a thread..... Too bad it didn't last long....
*finish*
4:38
Wish I had sumpin' to smoak awn..... Or eat....
4:39
I'm gonna go pour another drink....
4:41
Well, I went to get a single ice cube... I have the whisky on the desk with me.....
I can't wait for Abbey to get home with her Galaxy S3, there is a picture I really wanna take.... But the opportunity might fade if not capitalized on soon....
4:42
4:51
I'm not really too sure how to friends....
4:53
People keep deleting me, and it keeps hurting...
4:56
Whisky feels good....
5:06
Whisky won't delete me...
5:07
Abbey's home.... Picture time...
5:13
5:15
The phone's dead, has to recharge, hopefully the picture will last....
5:17
5:26
5:54
6:03
I'm so fucking hungry... I just wish I had -REAL- food to eat...
6:04
I can't hold all this in anymore. I need an outlet.
4:16
3 rocks float in maker's mark in a neat thick-bottomed glass...
Looking at pictures of my sister and her husband with my 2 nephews... One of whom, I haven't even met... I teared up a bit and then ran for my bubba, my bink, my whipskee, my daddy joops....
I don't even want to drink it. I don't even want to drink....
What else is there to do?
4:19
No cannabis, no food, no one to talk to... Whip-ski is all I gots....
*sip*
4:21
An old friend/co-worker hitting me up in the opportune time, in the opportune way... Too tangled and personal of a synchronicity to explain, but I'll over summarize, The Hollywood Theater is having a Mother's Day celebration showing the Sound Of Music and serving breakfast with it... I'd love to take my Mum to that.... An old buddy just out-of-the-blue messages me a meme/macro of Sister Maria singing to the children with the text reading "Cut my life into pieces, this is my last resort"....
4:23
Rocks are melted, half-glass remains....
4:24
4:29
4:37
Got pleasantly distracted by a buddy's inquiry in a thread..... Too bad it didn't last long....
*finish*
4:38
Wish I had sumpin' to smoak awn..... Or eat....
4:39
I'm gonna go pour another drink....
4:41
Well, I went to get a single ice cube... I have the whisky on the desk with me.....
I can't wait for Abbey to get home with her Galaxy S3, there is a picture I really wanna take.... But the opportunity might fade if not capitalized on soon....
4:42
4:51
I'm not really too sure how to friends....
4:53
People keep deleting me, and it keeps hurting...
4:56
Whisky feels good....
5:06
Whisky won't delete me...
5:07
Abbey's home.... Picture time...
5:13
5:15
The phone's dead, has to recharge, hopefully the picture will last....
5:17
5:26
5:54
6:03
I'm so fucking hungry... I just wish I had -REAL- food to eat...
6:04
Tuesday, April 4, 2017
Tuesday, January 3, 2017
New Year, Old Me
A Return To Vish
New Year's Resolutions:
[Once-A-Day, At Least] -
Handstand
Zazen
Selfie
Fridge Pic
Blog
FB B-Days
keep getting rid of trash, keep streamlining
The less you own, the better!
Does it have a use? Does it have a purpose? To whom?
Portable Harddrive.......
New Year's Resolutions:
[Once-A-Day, At Least] -
Handstand
Zazen
Selfie
Fridge Pic
Blog
FB B-Days
keep getting rid of trash, keep streamlining
The less you own, the better!
Does it have a use? Does it have a purpose? To whom?
Portable Harddrive.......
one two seventeen
1.2.17
12:10a
Setting up folders...
I already feel like too many details are being omitted...
12:24a
Middle of the night/morning
12:25a
Need to focus...
Changing profile pic/cover photo... Checking notifications... Tumblr dive
12:26a
Gonna need to keep an eye on when the bank will be open next...
12:30a
1:10a
re-reading an old blog post
trying to decide whether or not to stay up.... and more importantly -how- I'm going to get back to sleep
1:11a
one-hitter
5 years ago, today... I was worried the world would end...
1:18a
I am a crazy person. I am a lot to take in. I am a lot to handle.
1:21a
I think I need to sit zazen a lot this year....
1:23a
such lofty goals....
none of it seems realistic or achievable...
What do I really want?
1:27a
Well young man, do you feel "realigned"?
1:33a
So easy to get ahead of yourself....
--the best use of my time AT PRESENT--
1:36a
I should prolly try to get back to sleep... wake with the sun...
1:37a
1:43a
1:45a
1:54a
outen the lights
12:10a
Setting up folders...
I already feel like too many details are being omitted...
12:24a
Middle of the night/morning
12:25a
Need to focus...
Changing profile pic/cover photo... Checking notifications... Tumblr dive
12:26a
Gonna need to keep an eye on when the bank will be open next...
12:30a
1:10a
re-reading an old blog post
trying to decide whether or not to stay up.... and more importantly -how- I'm going to get back to sleep
1:11a
one-hitter
5 years ago, today... I was worried the world would end...
1:18a
I am a crazy person. I am a lot to take in. I am a lot to handle.
1:21a
I think I need to sit zazen a lot this year....
1:23a
such lofty goals....
none of it seems realistic or achievable...
What do I really want?
1:27a
Well young man, do you feel "realigned"?
1:33a
So easy to get ahead of yourself....
--the best use of my time AT PRESENT--
1:36a
I should prolly try to get back to sleep... wake with the sun...
1:37a
1:43a
1:45a
1:54a
outen the lights
Sunday, January 1, 2017
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